Carrie Butler Photography » Family http://www.carriebutlerphotography.com Wedding and Engagement Photographer Wed, 16 May 2012 00:08:33 +0000 en hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.3.2 Who Brett is. http://www.carriebutlerphotography.com/who-brett-is/ http://www.carriebutlerphotography.com/who-brett-is/#comments Wed, 12 Jan 2011 07:34:11 +0000 Carrie http://blog.carriebutlerphotography.com/?p=900 Sometimes I forget.  Someone will say something funny, and I will laugh, and we will talk about something, anything else and I will become absorbed in other thoughts, other feelings, other emotions.  And then I remember and for a split second, I can’t breathe.  I miss my brother and that is the long and the short of it.  I suppose that time will begin to heal our shattered insides.  I’ve heard that eventually this pain will even begin to fade into something more manageable.  So far, several times a day, I reach for my phone to send him a text, and then recall that he won’t receive the text, even if it is about something hilarious, like our other brother saying “that old bastard, Dick Cheney…” from the pulpit at church at his funeral.  I miss him. 

Brett had written our baby brother a letter before he died that I am going to quote here.  Partly because it truly speaks to how much better he was then the rest of us, and partly because I know in the days and weeks to come, it will be nice to revisit, when I don’t feel strong enough, brave enough or smart enough to reach up and be the person I should be. 

“I live my life to the best of my ability and I try hard to be a good person every day. I haven’t been waiting to be the person I want to be, I have been trying to be that person every day of my life. I have always kept an image in mind of the person I want to be. I have always wanted to be smart, kind, funny, hard working, honest, sincere, strong, healthy, and all around fun to be around. I can’t say I am all of those things but I have been working consistently everyday of my life to be that person. I am sure you have an image of the person you want to be somewhere in your head too. The only advice I can give you is not to wait to be that person. Be him today and everyday for the rest of your life. They say that nice guys finish last which is probably true, but I would rather finish last and have people respect and love me for the service I gave them than finish first and have people hate the person that I was.”

I love you, brother.  See you on the other side.

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So, February 1st today, which means that tomorrow is February 2nd, a very significant day for two important reasons, number one it is Groundhog day, a day which I wait for all winter long even though I usually end up feeling ripped off by yet another faulty prediction by that crazy Punxatawny Phil.  (lets face it, we live in Salt Lake City, where no matter what some sleepy groundhog says, it still will never be spring six weeks from now.)  The other important event tomorrow is the first episode of the final season of Lost.  As I type this, I feel my pulse quickening, my heart tightening in my chest, excitement pulsing through my veins.  Lost is back, readers!!  And if you need help remembering how I feel about it, please refer to this post .  Oooh, remember how Juliet fell down the tunnel and then everything went white and that was the end last season?  Aaack!!!  I can’t wait!

And since it has been far too long since you have seen them, here are my pretty little monsters, I love them so much!

I bet most of you moms can relate to desperately trying to find things to occupy your kids during the winter.  Last year we played “bake shop” a lot, till I realized I had gained ten pounds.  This year, we play “nail salon”, “hair salon”, and a lot of hide and go seek.  Here are some shots of “nail salon”, we go all out, complete with magazines and bathrobes.  It is pretty fun and usually takes up at least 45 minutes.

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